urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger the misadventures of a perfect little princess allison 2008-04-25T01:41:40Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:52370 2008-04-25T01:41:40Z 2008-04-25T01:41:40Z i feel good and stuff. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:42787 2007-12-07T04:29:21Z 2007-12-07T04:32:03Z <img src="http://www.nicholasroutzen.com/outings/mar/images/P1080288.jpg"><br /><br><br /><br /><img src="http://www.nicholasroutzen.com/outings/girlsnight/images/P1070978.jpg" /><br /><br><br /><br /><img src="http://www.nicholasroutzen.com/outings/mar/images/P1080290.jpg" /><br /><br><br /><br /><img src="http://www.nicholasroutzen.com/outings/girlsnight/images/P1070984.jpg" /><br /><br /><br><br /><br /><img src="http://photos-384.ll.facebook.com/photos-ll-sctm/v170/77/17/821885384/n821885384_1800405_6043.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:18910 2007-06-12T03:14:48Z 2007-09-29T19:09:18Z i realize now<br />you are not to be blamed my love<br />you didnt choose yr name my love<br />you'll never cross the seven seas<br><br /><br /><img src="http://www.scrapbookpages.com/CzechRepublic/JosefovPhotos/Cemetery.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:17701 2007-06-05T01:59:03Z 2007-06-05T02:45:45Z yeah, im little. yeah, i wear my heart on my sleeve. yeah, my shell is thin. yeah, it makes me an easy target.<br /><br />im not a weak person. im stronger than anyone can imagine, and thats why im open and comfortable with it. i dont have to have my guard up all the time because i know when the worst happens, i can handle it. <br /><br />do NOT EVER try to take away my credibility. dont assume i am stupid, naive, or weak. i have read just as many books as you have read (if not more), ive seen things people only fear, AND ive lived a fucking lifetime in my twenty six years. im not afraid of people or situations. i can jump in the sea of people and not be scared or feel like i need protection. in my eyes, ive been through so much that people are just learning experiences, and specks in the big picture. <br /><br />its so easy to talk shit behind people's backs and analyze people and every other retarded thing when you think someone is fragile, unintelligent, and inexperienced. but you cannot comment on other's decisions when you are too scared to even consider them. <br /><br />my shrink has told me that everyone wants to pick on me, and find things wrong with me. but theres barely anything wrong with me at all. that im stronger than most people and am honest with my feelings and myself. but that i surround myself with people who treat me bad. she also says i have been through more than she can even imagine, and i am an incredibly strong person to still be happy, still be myself, and have a sense and pride to who i am. when she says these things, i cry. because no one ever says these things to me. no one ever appreciates my wisdom or credibility. and its sort of sad that ive let myself be with the kind of people who cant do that. the fact that i have had these people in my life and am still relentless, is proof enough that i am strong. <br /><br />my point: dont underestimate anyone. especially someone who has been through more shit than everyone in the room combined. <br /><br /><br /><br />aka i will NEVER allow myself to be the joke/punching bag of any group ever again. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:16938 2007-06-03T16:05:08Z 2007-06-03T16:05:08Z bar hopping last night with mar, gillian, dimitri and evan. royal oak was lame. i think everyone from jersey shipped out to that specific bar. union pool was fun. then san loco at three am. good times, good times.<br /><br />totally exhausted from moving, but on my way to roebling tea room for brunch with the ladies. <br /><br />feeling emotionally drained, kinda sad about relationships. i dont have the answers, maybe someday i will... oh what a journey! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:16830 2007-06-02T05:01:22Z 2007-06-02T05:01:22Z sleepover wednesday. <br />work.<br />moving thursday.<br />work.<br />animal collective (for free) and getting drunk on raspberry beer with the girls (and getting to see jamie for the first time in months) friday.<br />unpacking drunk after midnight.<br /><br />time for bed, after i finish this mac n cheese. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:16633 2007-05-30T21:11:00Z 2007-05-30T21:11:00Z i see a light at the end of the tunnel and it has rainbows, cupcakes, slip n slides, giraffes, strawberries and kittens. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:15766 2007-05-26T17:03:13Z 2007-05-26T17:03:13Z <i>i swear, i absolutely swear, all this cant just be the boring nervous edginess of a female who needs a husband. i need far, far more than a husband</i><br />-claudine in paris. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:15472 2007-05-26T04:46:20Z 2007-05-26T04:46:20Z i dont know if its the new job or the two weeks of extreme apartment hunting catching up with me, but i am absolutely exhausted. seriously. ive been sleeping like crazy, and never feel like i have enough. <br /><br />tomorrow is camping and i am so excited. i bought groceries today and bought typical camping food, such as hot dogs, marshmellows, and almost a watermelon, but i couldnt lift it so david has to get it tomorrow.<br /><br />ive never been camping before, so this is totally exciting for me. <br /><br />NEW SEASON OF DEGRASSI COMING SOON AND THERES FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS AND SOMEONE STRIPPING!!! cannot wait. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:15168 2007-05-23T04:12:14Z 2007-05-23T04:12:14Z lj is so weird. im sick of being like OMG I DID THIS AND THAT everytime i do something cool. a) im <i>always</i> doing something cool. b) what the fuck do you care? c) what the fuck do i care if you care? <br /><br />BUT... i guess i will give a run down of the past week or so's events since there were quite a few noteworthy ones. i got a new macbook. i love it. im picking up the lease tomorrow for my new apartment with dan. i love that as well. my job is more stressful, a million times more fast paced, and i have tons more responsibility. and i love that too. other than that, girls night out to taco chulo, levee, and union pool. more nights out to lulus and union picnic. brunch at st helens then park. just fun times. this weekend is camping at devils tombstone (which we have come up with appropriate satanic nick names for the occassion). next weekend animal collective and moving. and summer is coming which means free shows in the park pool with veggie dogs and slip n slide. hopefully, i will see jamie at the animal collective show. OH also, housewarming party for dan and i in the works. prolly a dance party since we dont have a lot of furniture and perfect floors to slide on. more details on that as they come available.<br /><br />onto more important things than what i am doing.. i just watched the tenant. it was a really great mindfuck. so far i am quite enjoying polanski's series of apartment paranoia. now that i dont have to look for a new place every free moment i have, i can go back to reading colette, which has become one of my favourite pasttimes ever. right now im on claudine in paris. so excited to jump back in where i left off. <br /><br />oh and muffie says "meow".<br /><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v46/allisonbrooke/l_7728655a74d2955ee39ca2bec3da77ba.jpg" /><p><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v46/allisonbrooke/l_9690f3ac9bb21cb8f9d0b62feb593af2.jpg" /><p><br /><img src="http://a624.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/20/l_45ba95519d1425da748f438b124c01c7.jpg" /><p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:14924 2007-05-21T00:42:37Z 2007-05-21T00:42:37Z problem one : solved.<br />onto problem number two... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:14656 2007-05-19T23:18:41Z 2007-05-19T23:18:41Z i just signed a lease!<br />its cute and adorable and in greenpoint and everything is new and its CHEAP!<br /><br />life is amazing. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:14479 2007-05-17T00:36:28Z 2007-05-17T00:36:28Z i was put into a new area at work, an area i like a lot more. now i take care of bills and set up closings. way better than sorting thru papers. and i got to type up a deed today which brings back pulte memories. never thot i would miss that place. unfortunately, the new job requires me to be there at eight am for training (wake up at six, yikes) and stay way later than i did before. at least theres overtime!!<br /><br />but im still looking for a new place and it is ridiculously hard especially on my budget. i hope for a miracle. i went to look at an open room last night and it was across the street from the fucking projects. fuck that shit. i drove off, didnt even bother to stop.<br /><br />more work on myself, more work at work, more house searching. always more more more. and i missed two obama meetings... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:14290 2007-05-14T05:35:54Z 2007-05-14T05:41:11Z is this a stupid test? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:14027 2007-05-14T02:06:31Z 2007-05-14T02:06:31Z apt hunting is bumming me out... too. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:13805 2007-05-12T19:02:02Z 2007-05-12T19:02:02Z i found a place and its nice and has a great location.<br />i want to put a hold on it now, but i havent got the ok from dan yet. im afraid someone is going to grab it right under my nose. <br />its fucking PERFECT!<br />3 br, 2 living spaces (living room and dining room OR computer room), kitchen and bathroom for $2000. sweet as candy landlords. next to mccarren park but in greenpoint. prolly turn one bedroom into a work space for dan. and im getting a tiny room, but im down for that. <br /><br />please please please let no one grab it before i can get a hold of dan. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:13546 2007-05-12T16:48:44Z 2007-05-12T16:48:44Z i am very observant. and very insightful. <br />i know my problems, where they stem from, just not how to conquer them.<br />i also know other people's problems and where they stem from.<br />my shrink said i know a lot more about the human mind than most people.<br />i think i surprise her a lot. <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />observant? insightful? or maybe just empathetic? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:13215 2007-05-12T07:01:52Z 2007-05-12T07:01:52Z super cramps. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:12851 2007-05-10T00:57:05Z 2007-05-10T00:57:05Z which is weird.<br /><br />sometimes i get really anxious and start having panic attacks and thinking about how im going to have to get a second job or sell my car or something...<br /><br />other times, i get really giddy and excited and want to move in NOW NOW NOW!<br /><br />id love to stay in greenpoint but the poseurs (yeah, i said it!) are making the rent sky high. same thing with williamsburg (ONLY WORSE!!!). my shrink said i should move to bushwick. she said its more real and a lot like williamsburg was before it became pretentious. fucking condos. fucking trust fund kids. fucking views of the pool that is empty. <br /><br />also, i get really excited when i read about "roof access" on craigslist but then i remember that im afraid of heights.<br /><br />nothing much more to say, except that ill be a lot shorter on money so no more brunches whenever i feel like it or sending five thousand texts in one month. dammit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:12763 2007-05-07T03:08:27Z 2007-05-07T03:08:27Z life is weird.<br />but clothes are great. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:11623 2007-05-06T17:55:55Z 2007-05-06T17:55:55Z yesterday was so amazing, but my weak stomach kinda ruined the fun for me.<br />the crew went out for brunch at a new place that takes little doggies, so cute. we got our frozen margaritas to go and walked down to mccarren to sit in the sun. someone brought a box of wine. we smoked a lot of cigarettes. and did a lot of giggling.<br />then i puked. cos bloody mary + margarita + wine = allison drunk and unable to hold the shit in her stomach. <br />so embarrassing, but whatevs. im punk rock. the rest of the night i was completely sick and hungover. gay. now i know i cant drink that much so early in the afternoon. or mix alcohols. not a good idea.<br /><br />today shopping at beacon's with mar. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:10784 2007-05-05T00:42:46Z 2007-05-05T00:42:46Z me: i guess im just a bad person...<br />anonymous: NOT TRUE! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:10056 2007-05-02T00:12:55Z 2007-05-02T00:12:55Z so today i was sitting on the steps of my work, where i always sit, smoking a cigarette and this woman sits next to me.<br /><br />she asks to see my hands. and she tells me im going to live for a very long time. typical give me money psychic shit.. but then she goes on about all these details about my life. REALLY spooky details, that NO ONE would know about except me. seriously, i was shaking she was so accurate.<br /><br />seriously, creepiest thing thats ever happened to me in my life.<br /><br />HEY IF ITS TRUE THEN ILL LIVE FOR A LONG TIME! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:7813 2007-04-25T01:40:45Z 2007-04-25T01:40:45Z i cant believe how amazing i am at fucking everything up. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:oneyearasatiger:7550 2007-04-24T20:52:59Z 2007-04-24T22:31:42Z <img src="http://farm1.static.flickr.com/202/469430884_8514b84965.jpg?v=0" alt="" /><br /><br />if i can make it through those rocks, i can make it through this.